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I haven’t been the same since I lost Zane. Which is OK because I was a fool then. I’m probably still a fool, but a little quieter.

I’m going to let these guys talk for me from now on. They can also change the toilet paper rolls from now on.

Fools of toilet paper. Fools of tile and grout. Fools of cats named Pico and Fools of cats named Trout.

Falstaff was the fool that helped Henry the IV become Henry the V.

Lear’s Fool knew better than the King himself where love and truth overlapped and where they parted.

My friend Peter Friederici wrote a book about not so much changing the narrative but changing from narrative to dramatic story. Narratives are plotted and finished. If the Climate story is a narrative, we know how it ends. Tragedy means we had a choice in the way of our fate, buta tragic flaw means that we cannot escape our fate, even if there was a moment for the tide to turn. A drama conspires with the audience. What they know matter to the story. The Greek Chorus helps them participate. Comedy, even more so, “holds that any people can find agency” (127).

Moments of foolhardiness can be real mistakes–tapping someone on the butt to say, ‘go get ’em’ might feel like abuse. Staying out instead of coming home. Walking in high heels. Telling that joke. Talking too loud. Saying it’s all going to be OK. Saying that it’s not. Letting your kid take the bus. Making your kid take the bus. Driving 8 hours to see your family. Saying you don’t believe in: therapy, drugs (they don’t work), alcoholism, trucks, phones, chicken broth, grades, human evolution (aka, humans are done), water buffalo versus wildebeests, the singularity, makes you a fool. But you have to draw the line somewhere. Take a stand. Overmother your own mother. Take your medicine that you don’t believe in. Make some pies.

Happy Thanksgiving, cats and fools.

On June 30th, I went with my good friend Beya and our youngest borns, to Clear Creek to Paddleboard. The wind was strong. The water was murky. The sun was hot. We managed to make it around the reeds but no further. When I emerged from the water, I found a horrifying sight. My paddleboard fin had come out of its socket and had fallen to the reservoir floor. Max and Ian searched the mud for it, but it was nowhere to be found. No worries, I thought. That’s what Amazon is for. But this fin is particular. It has little notches to anchor the fin (not so well if you don’t slide the lock all the way through). I called CA Paddleboards. They haven’t made that kind in years. Someone in Utah had just lost his and they’d had to share the disappointing news to him. Erik wasn’t happy. He teased that maybe I could go to the Maker Lab at NAU to get a new one printed. That seemed impossible to me. Farfetched to him. I searched the internet as deeply as the boys searched Clear Creek river. Nada. There was none. So I called the Maker Lab people. I learned Tinkercad. I tinkered and prototyped and screwed up measurements. Zoe kept telling me I needed calipers. Max, who told me when I had almost finished drawing the fin, having bruised my head hitting it against the wall of three dimensional learning, “oh yeah. I learned Tinkercad in science last year.” I made one fin. It was too small. I made another fin. The notches were in the wrong place. I made another fin. The base was too wide. But five prototypes later, I finally have a fin that slides into the notch inside the Paddleboard. Perhaps it will warm up enough for us to make it to the water one more time before winter.

Appleseed–Matt Bell

Beloved–Toni Morrison (my number one fave?)

Bastard Out of Carolina–Dorothy Allison

Braiding Sweetgrass–Robin Wall Kimmerer

The Beautiful Ones Are Not Yet Born–Ayi Kwei Armah

The Brother’s K–David James Duncan

The Bone People–Keri Hulme

The Color Purple–Alice Walker

Cloud Cuckoo Nest–Anthony Doerr

Control of Nature–John McPhee

Dear Committee Members–Julie Schumacher

Detransition, Baby–Torrey Peters

The Every (Dave Eggers–I didn’t really like but I got stuck on E)

The Echomaker–Richard Powers (thought of my actual favorite E)

The Effect of Gamma Rays on Man-in-the-Moon Marigolds–Paul Zindel

Even Cowgirls Get the Blues–Tom Robbins

Finnegan’s Wake (hahaha)

Flight Behavior–Barbara Kingsolver

Fierce Invalids Home from Hot Climates–Tom Robbins

Franny and Zooey–JD Salinger

Geek Love–Katherine Dunn

Gut Symmetries–Jeanette Winterson

Galatea 2.2–Richard Powers

Heavy–Kiese Laymon

Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas–Tom Robbins

Hamnet–Maggie O’Farrell

H is for Hawk–Helen McDonald

Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy–Douglas Adams

Homegoing–Yaa Gyasi

How to Write an Autobiographical Novel–Alexander Chee

I Been in Sorrows Kitchen and Licked Out all The Pots–Susan Straight

It’s Like This Cat–Emily Neville

I’ve Been Down So Long It Looks Like Up From Here–Richard Fariña

I Am the Cheese–Robert Cromier

In the House Upon the Dirt Between the Lake and the Woods–Matt Bell

Jitterbug Perfume–Tom Robbins

The Kite Runner–Khaled Hosseini

Lincoln in the Bardo–George Saunders

Let the Great World Spin–Collum McCann

Light in August–William Faulkner (this might be my second favorite)

Moby Dick–Herman Melville

Master Butchers Singing Club–Louise Erdrich

My Darling, My Hamburger–Paul Zindel

The Night Watchman–Louise Erdrich

Neck Deep and Other Predicaments–Ander Monson

One Hundred Years of Solitude–Gabriel Garcia Marquez

The Overstory–Richard Powers

Poisonwood Bible–Barbara Kingsolver

Persuasion–Jane Austen

Queen of the Night–Alexander Chee

The Quiet American–Graham Greene

The Round House–Louise Erdrich

The Road–Cormac McCarthy

The River Why–David James Duncan

Sometimes a Great Notion–Ken Kesey

Song of Solomon–Toni Morrison

She’s Come Undone–Wally Lamb

Sexing the Cherry–Jeannette Winterson

Snow–Orham Pamuk

Salvage the Bones–Jesmyn Ward

Slaughterhouse Five–Kurt Vonnegut

Stones from a River–Ursula Hegi

Swamplandia–Karen Russell

Things Fall Apart–Chinua Achebe

This Cold Heaven–Gretel Ehrlich

Under the Banner of Heaven–Jon Krakauer

Underground Railroad–Colson Whitehead

A Visit from the Good Squad–Jennifer Egan

Wolf Hall–Hilary Mantel

Xanadu–Olivia Newton John

Yellow House–Sarah Broom

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance–Robert Pirsig

Hello from inside of my summer class. I am teaching a short May term class. I love this class. It’s so organized and fast. The students go from 0 to 60 in 3 short weeks. However, because I broke my wrist while dancing too close to the mosh pit at the Built to Spill show in town, it is hard to type. So now that I’ve finished the four hours of commenting I had to mark on student papers, my wrist is not up to writing but if I don’t write, I might go a little crazy. So, I’m off to take some ibuprofen and write about Nina Simone on the Colorado and me and my sister on the road to visit the brine shrimp.

• 1998–Twister (Twister board as toga, spinning device as mortar board.) Party at Craig and Satina’s. Car shot with automatic rifle sometime in the middle of the night. Fortunately, I’m not in it and no one got hurt.
• 1999–Costume? This is the one year I can’t remember. I blame it on PTSD from the previous party at Craig and Satina’s, where it was held again this year, but in their new house. That’s what I should have gone as–PTSD.
• 2000–Group project with KJ (my sister, Paige) and co as The Monkey Wrench Gang. Party at Mary Anne’s. Halfway through, KJ and I realized we should have gone as The Blair Witch Project. If only we’d brought our video camera. Erik was Private Ryan.
• 2001–Martha Stewart. I came prepared with edible scary treats marshmallow and licorice spiders, scary dismembered hands made from gloves and popcorn and other Stewarty like crafty-foods. I wore a button down Oxford. Party at Kate’s. Erik was Hank Williams.
• 2002–Lemon Fresh Scent. Shorts and shirt adorned with lemons–car scent tree hanging from neck. Lemon drops in pockets. Kate again hosts. Kate’s porch suffers from too much fun.
• 2003–The Drought–sand glued to dusty clothes, empty water bottles dragging behind like so many ghostly chains from a Christmas Carol. Party at Rebecca L.’s.
• 2004–Binicula. Party at Erik’s friend’s house. No one gets the bunny ears and vampire teeth.
• 2005–Stuccoe’d O’er with Quadrepeds. Zoe, newly born, goes as one of the quadrapeds (a lamb) other four-legged Beanie Babies pinned to outfit. No one gets the Whitman reference. I send a photo to my dissertation director.
• 2006–The Forest Floor. Again with the safety pins. Amanita muscaria of red felt with white dots and fall leaves stuck to me. Zoe goes as a bear. I carry her to make the sense of floor more (or possibly less) clear.
• 2007–The Michigan Real Estate Market–Cheap and Easy. Blue eye shadow. Glitter. A sign (safety pin) on my bum reading “Price Reduced.”
• 2008—Today’s Mail. Junk mail safety-pinned to clothes.
• 2009—VW Volkswagen Bug (very pregnant).  VW emblem necklace, fairy wings.
• 2010—Twister (again! But this time with crazy hair and spinning. Like a tornado. Or a movie).  (Erik was big Labowski.)
• 2011—Black Box Theater (mime face. Carry around a box of Black Box wine.)
• 2012—Bi-polar (a north sign on one hand, a south sign on the other. Plus half day of the dead face. I hope)
• 2013—Woodsy the Owl—owl wings from kite, garbage bin with “Don’t be a Litter Bug” taped to a garbage can.
• 2014—Hans and Franz
• 2015—The NonfictioNOW conference bags.
• 2016—Caged Free Eggs.
• 2017—The Ghost of Elections Past (white wig, white face, raven, voter registration forms)
• 2018—Black Box Theater (Box of wine. White face.)
• 2019—Didn’t dress up.
• 2020—Great British baking show—I was Noel, Erik was Paul Hollywood, Max was Sandi, Zoe was Mel.
• 2021—Max and me, Zoom windows, Zoe and Max, Peanut butter and jellyfish. Erik Dan. Later, Zoe wore her pink onesie with Erik’s “Dan” nametag

Processed Meats: Essays on Food, Flesh, and Navigating Disaster has been out for two weeks and two days–a little less time that it takes to make pancetta. Pancetta is the Italian bacon–pork belly, cured, then, instead of cold-smoked like bacon, it’s dried in a garage. Or a garage-like entity. It’s supposed to be humid, the garage, but there is no humidity in this Arizona climate although it has snowed and, since snow tunnels under the garage door, when the snow melts, the garage approximates a humidor. If humidors were just lightly humid.

The Charcuterie Bible, by Michael Ruhlman does not expressly give permission to eat the pancetta raw. He says something like, “since you’ll be cooking it anyway, you don’t have to worry about…..” But I was always going to eat it raw as I do bacon and carpaccio and yellow tail. I feel the microorganisms in my gut get bored and need some work to do. I have a strong stomach. I don’t know. I should worry but I can’t because it’s delicious raw and it seems to not trouble my stomach.

One of the best things about publishing a book is you find out what you’re not supposed to do. I get questions about whether writing about my kids invades their privacy and why I eat meat and still claim to be an environmentalist and why I keep writing about climate change even though no one wants to talk about it. It’s not that raw is more delicious or better, necessarily. But it’s the thing that comes first. Prima facie. It presents itself without embellishment. I like fully cooked bacon but the meat, yes, processed, but straight from the garage of non-humidity, feels immediate and a little feral. Should writing be feral? Like pancetta, probably not all the time, but, for those whose stomachs don’t mind, sometimes seems right.

We are an opinionated group of humans, this family of mine. I had the chance to go to New Zealand to help plan the 2020 NonfictioNOW conference. I invited my family to go along. Since two of the invitees are minors, they were somewhat forced to go along once the other major in the family accepted the idea.

Zoe really wasn’t into going. She is taking physics, engineering, geometry, Spanish 2, Honors English, and health. She doesn’t want to get a B in any class, even in health. She’s a freshman. It was a hard transition from middle school to high. Most of her friends went to Flag High instead of Coconino but Z wanted to enroll in the CIT (Coconino Institute of Technology). She wanted to go to the school with the most diversity. But she started the year with only one friend coming from MEMS. The first week, she ate lunch alone. All of this made her much more committed to the friends she made after that week. She didn’t want to leave these new friends. She didn’t want to miss school. She didn’t want to fall behind. And, she felt torn. She knew it was a great privilege to be able to go. Not wanting to go to New Zealand sounds even more privileged. So she was all tied up in knots about going and I don’t blame her. 14 is the hardest year, next to 13, 23, 33 and all the other hard years.

Max was OK to go because he’s in 4th grade. Still, he was nervous about the 17 hour traveling time. He wanted to know what we were going to do. When we told him we were renting a Campervan, he almost cried. Which was a pleasant reaction next to Zoe’s.

The only good thing about renting a Jucy CamperVan is that when other people with Jucy’s pass by, they wave at you. With much excitement! And, the Jucy is pretty cheap. In fact, we did a very good job going to the other side of the planet spending not-too-much money. We got airplane tickets for $900 each. The comps my department presented? $3200. We truly lucked out on the plane tickets. Then, once we arrived in New Zealand, the dollar was strong. A $12 sandwich in NZ is $8 in US dollars. In Flagstaff, a $12 sandwich is $16.

For the NonfictioNOW conference, I’m hoping the dollar stays strong for US travelers and that we can find those reasonably priced flights again. I love really long flights because it gives you enough time to sleep the whole 8 hours, plus have dinner and breakfast. When you fly to Europe, by the time they feed you and put you to sleep, they wake you up again to feed you. It’s like being in the hospital. But to NZ and Australia? Plenty of time for everything. I took my TRTL and a foot sling that you hang from the tray table for sleeping. Max and Zoe looked longingly at the first class luxury beds but who needs that when you have a TRTL and a foot sling? I also have 2 glasses of wine and a benadryl. The kids didn’t have that but they had their own TRTLs and their own foot slings and they slept for 8 hours too. The other great thing about flying that way is that you lose a day but gain a couple of hours. The time difference is about the same as east coast to west. Your circadian rhythms stay pretty close to the same. By the time we got to our hotel in Wellington (CamperVan adventures saved for the latter half of the trip), we were tired but not zombie-tired. Plus, the hotel let us check in at 11:00 a.m. We took showers and then headed for lunch.

The kids loved Wellington. I loved Wellington. Are we city people?

Not necessarily but we might not be campervan people.

Still without the campervan, we would not have gotten to see the Weka which kind of looks like a Kiwi, but isn’t and doesn’t. We wouldn’t have got to see the Golden Sands Beach or kayak or meet this cormorant bird called a shag. I really love New Zealand. And I love my family even if no one want to eat the same thing for lunch. I also see that my finger is in this top picture–in keeping with the typo theme of my Christmas card, my Christmas post, and my regular life.

 

 

There are many typos on my Christmas card. I blame my exhaustion. And also my hubris that I can type.

Typos found: First word! Or first number: 2109. I am telling you, the future will be rough. Also, Eventhough is not one one. Also, two ons don’t make it right.

There are probably typos in here but now I have to go find my mom’s missing luggage. I will try to proofread later.

I came up with a new word for revision. Actually 7 words. I told my students this year that if the word revision freaks them out to think of kinder, gentler words like go over, rethink, re-see, consider, add texture, layer. The idea of layering is particularly useful to me. I compared it to painting a wall. The first coat looks OK. It sort of covers the drywall. The next layer really thickens the color. The next layer fills in all the missing parts–it looks smooth and seamless. Not that writing ever gets to that seamless stage but to go over to me is so much more fun that re-doing or revising.

If I think of 2019, I think of layering. There was the kind of layering that meant one layer of parenting, one layering of teaching, a layer of friending. A layer of writing. A layer of occasionally even going out for a glass of wine with Erik, just the two of us. I’m not sure if juggling isn’t the better metaphor but truly, you do have to do all five things at once. The layers stick to each other, so when sometimes I can write and make dinner at the same time. Sometimes, I can grade and help Zoe with her homework. Sometimes, I can hang out with my friends from work and we get some work done and some friending done which does feel doubly accomplished.

I’ll remember 2019 as a thick year. Thick with travel, with climate news and sorrow, with impeachment, and with my kids getting so old that I am mostly their Uber driver. The travel is both great and tricky. When it’s just me traveling, I miss my kids and Erik. When the kids and Erik come, it’s four willful humans battling it out for where to go to lunch.

Some of the places, I got to go twice, which was awesome. The best trip was the first one–to Portland. Erik and I stayed downtown at the Crystal Hotel across from Powell’s Books. I read at Powell’s on January 10th from Sustainability: A Love Story. This was my life goal and so it’s hard to imagine how the year could get any better. Maybe it did but it was so fantastic. My boss from 20 years ago from the Oregon Winegrowers Association came. My friend Tanya from Idaho. My college boyfriend Andy and his parents. My love friend Misty and her husband, John. Even Jewelee came, who I hadn’t seen since I’d moved away from Portland. Kim from my freshman year came and Em and Van joined in too. Rhett my old roommate. It was the greatest gift that these people came. My friend from Flagstaff sent me flowers. I read from Sustainability and we talked about climate and hope and loss afterward and then we had beer and wine. I will never forget that reading and the hanging out after and the dream of Powell’s Books in Portland, Oregon. Erik and I drove to Seattle by way of the Olympic Peninsul

a. I saw otters swim in Capitol Lake. We stayed at David Shields house in Seattle and ate delicious Seattlean food. I wish Erik and I were heading back there in two weeks.

OK. I’m going to have to pick up the pace or this will be the longest thing I ever wrote and I have 5,328 things to write over break. Max played basketball in the winter. Practice on Friday nights. Which he did the year before and will again this year. My friend Beya lives around  the corner so I can pop by to visit her sometimes during his practice.  Zoe runs a lot. She ran in the fall. She ran in the winter. She ran in the spring. She played soccer and ran. and she played basketball and ran and she ran through the forests. Also, apparently Erik took all the running photos.

It snowed well this year. We went skiing for our friend Lawrence’s birthday. We took Max’s buddies along. Did I ski again? Maybe not but Max and Erik and Zoe skied at least seven times. Plus, Sledding! And pretend-dog-sledding.

I read in Tucson at the U of A Poetry Center so I got the best of both worlds–some snow and some not-snow. I stayed at the cottage on the U of A campus which was super fun. I also went back in early March for the Book Festival. I love Tucson, books, and to see my friends Ander and Megan and Athena. This is a picture from Tucson. Of what, I’m not sure. Maybe there’s a road runner in there?

March was the month of double visits–not only did I go back to Tucson but I went back to Portland for AWP conference. Not only am I layering thick my presence in these towns, I’m also laying thick streams of carbon. Did I buy carbon offsets? No. But I thought about it. Now I feel even more guilty but now, because it’s Christmas, I’m also broke. I will buy some carbon offsets! Or I will join the current leaders of the US and Brazil, India, and China in trying to burn it all down as fast as possible (see the darkness of the layers? It creeps in.)

Erik took this picture of me and Zoe and Max at MeowWolf museum/funky place in Santa Fe. We went so I could give a reading but the store flooded that weekend. That’s OK. Zoe and I got a facial instead–which was lovely although the technicians kept trying to sell us on their light-stimulator. I resisted at $780, at $350, and even when they offered it to me for $120. I prefer my stimulation to come in the form of weird experiences with funky glasses at weird museums.

April! What happened in April. No one knows.

May! Graduation. Not only Zoe’s graduation from middle school.

but my nephew’s graduated from high school.  After Z’s graduation, we headed to Boise for his graduation celebration. Boise, from where my sister Valerie just moved  and my sister-in-law and brother-in-law moved to. I can’t blame anyone for moving–it’s part of why I travel so often–to see people I’ve moved away from–but I do wish we could all stay in one place. Salt Lake is good. Boise is good. Portland is good. LA is good. Truthfully, I wish everyone would come live in Flagstaff but that is probably selfish on my part. Flagstaff is expensive and it’s hard to tell if we have enough water for all the people I want to live here.

So if not everyone is going to move here, we’re off again. Max and Zoe and I are going on a reading book tour! Lucky them. The whole project may have been slightly misguided. We bought a new car so I could buy a new bike rack so I could take all the bikes on the road so we could ride our bikes everywhere we went. We did do some good riding in Davis when I was at the ASLE Conference.

And we rode a bit when we visited Bek and Todd and their amazing kids in Los Angeles. I read at Book Soup on Sunset Boulevard. Is there a better name for a bookstore? No there is not! And strangers came to the reading plus some friends from before–Aaron and his new partner Linda and Juliette. I made new friends too and one of them gave me a pink cat made out of wood so I knew I had arrived. At least had arrived for a minute.

But where has one arrived if one is always moving?

One has arrived at the coast, I hope. We rode quite a bit in Monterey where we saw otters even in I think the ocean.

Next, onto Napa where I’d arranged a reading at the Napa Bookmine. I am very clever because I like Napa and I like books. And I like wine. So together they went and we had fun but we did not ride bikes as much as I imagined. I thought the kids would like to ride from winery to winery, but the wineries are actually far apart. I think maybe next time, if I were to do this, I’d stay in St. Helens instead of Napa–at least for the biking.

Point Reyes was so cool and I have good pictures from there but by “I” I mean I don’t know where they are. Maybe Zoe’s phone?

From Napa to Salt Lake where I got to see my sisters, and nephews, niece, mom, and aunts. And where Max finished his rubick’s cube.

I almost forgot I went to Connecticut. Also, I almost missed my flight because in my mind, one flies to Boston to get to New Haven. But that is not correct. One flies to Hartford. I was sitting in the gate for the flight to Boston when I finally looked at my ticket and saw no Logan anywhere on my boarding pass.

I had a chance to work with these teachers as part of the Yale Institute and NAU’s Diné Institute. These

teacher-fellows take seminars with professors and then adapt what they learned in the course. I ate Connecticut pizza which I didn’t know was a thing until the Pod Save America people made fun of Jon Lovett. It was good because there is no bad pizza. I learned a lot and then I went back to Salt Lake to read at the King’s English from The After-Normal. This whole time, I carried with me the glass  “Egg” that Angie (she of the flower givers at Powell’s) gave me that had three brine shrimp and the right amount of algae and oxygen to keep them alive for 6 months. One died but two still live. Now the balance of algae to fish is off so I have to move it in and out of the light to keep the climate right, which is a good metaphor for what I would do with climate change if I were a giant god.

 

While I was in New Haven, Max, Zoe, and their cousin Lily got to go to Torrey, Utah, outside of Capitol Reef. They rode bikes there and river rafted and painted in the park. Torrey is the best place to travel to if you want to feel like traveling is relaxing and good for you.

 

We did, for most of August, manage to have a bit of a regular summer. You know

a little protesting, a little fire, a little paddle boarding, a little more paddle boarding, a little time lounging on the new flagstone-patio that Erik laid late last summer.

School started in early August as it does in we-used-to-need-10-snow-days-built-into-the schedule. Zoe started running again. Max started dancing again. He also started to play soccer.

Then, it was back to Salt Lake for a reading for the Utah Humanities Council and a fancy fun party my sister threw for The After-Normal. She made truly post-normal food. (Not really. She made delicious food, as usual).

In Flagstaff, I also helped with the Northern Arizona Book Festival and taught my classes and tried to orient new faculty to the disorienting world of academia. The best part was how great my classes were right off the bat. The students, as usual, saved my sanity. The traveling was so great but there’s something a little desperate about running around the country, trying to sell books–especially at bookstores where you’re not sure you’ll have a good audience. I lucked out in LA and Napa but a reading not mentioned here did not turn out so well. I spent a lot of time revising in between trips and a lot of time trying to work on two new projects. Would I want to write all day every day? Probably. But would I run out of things to say if I didn’t go places and teach students? I don’t know but I probably wouldn’t feel so protective of time and home either.

I had a great chance to go to both Granville, Ohio and Winston-Salem, NC to read at Denison College and High Point University–about a week apart. I figured, perhaps I could stay all week and have a bit of a writing retreat? That dream came true when Dinty W. Moore

invited me to read at Ohio University. So off to Columbus I flew. I talked about climate change with students at Denison thanks to Margot Singer, who is my friend and co-editor of Bending Genre and a brilliant writer. They were mostly grieving but some had hope. I wanted to give them more but I didn’t want to give them spin either. I talked about the microorganisms that can grow lipids that could be, if scaled up used in current fuel infrastructures. Did this help? I don’t know. I told them how books are passports to other people and places. Maybe books will save us. And let us visit our friend and their students. So I took that passport to Dinty W. Moore, who I know through Brevity Magazine,  his smart and funny books, AWP, and NonfictioNOW, and to his students students and then to Jacob Paul, who I know from grad school and from his ride across the country when he stopped in Michigan at our house when we lived there, and from his deeply intelligent books, and to see his students. Then I went back to Columbus where I got to meet Facebook friends, Kelly and Amy, and then I went downtown the next night and found fried chicken in the very cool town that was Columbus.

And then there was New Zealand, which I think needs its own page because this is already too much. Which is what it was. Even though it was maybe the most fun I’ve ever had in my life. And my books went around the world. And my kids came with for part of it. And Erik and I went to Portland and Seattle and we should go back because it’s good to return to your original effort and go over it one more time.

Here are some cute photos of last winter that I’m now regretting not using for our Christmas card.

 

 

My flight from Flag to Phoenix is delayed. My flight from Flagstaff to Phoenix is always delayed. I missed an interview once. I’ve missed connections. Once, when my flight was canceled Phoenix to Flag, my student Chase Edwards drove us through a snowstorm up the mountain at 2 a.m. I would hate Flagstaff’s difficult travel situation if I didn’t love the airport so much. I’m watching Gordon Ramsey’s Kitchen Nightmares, eating a grilled cheese, having a glass of wine. Maybe I could live at the airport and, if a flight actually became available, I could hop on as a resident flight-hopper-onner.

16 year old Climate Activist Greta Thunberg’s mother is an opera singer. Internationally renowned, she traveled across the globe. But she’s taken her travel down to nearly nothing, singing only around Sweden. Admittedly, my flight today is short enough to be within-Sweden-size but I do have some trips coming up that give me pause. They say flying is one of the worst carbon outputs. I managed to squish two different trips into one for October, but this means I’ll be away from Max and Zoe for 10 days instead of 3 days twice. They’ll thank me for it later, right?No, they won’t, because one flight back and forth from Flagstaff to Ohio won’t save the planet. But maybe they’ll thank me for my effort. Good intentions.

The whole family will  go to New Zealand for the NonfictioNOW planning conference in November. The kids are coming, reluctantly. No one likes to fly. No one likes to miss school.

But it’s so so good to travel. If I didn’t travel, I wouldn’t have met David Carlin who wrote the After-Normal with me so I could travel to now-Utah, soon Ohio to read to people about climate change. Speaking of change, travel changes your mind. Literally remaps the way you see the world.

But maybe there’s another way for that kind of remapping that doesn’t require carbon dioxide times 1000 per, that doesn’t necessitate hundreds of plastic forks and spoons and styrofoam since real utensils aren’t allowed behind security gates, that doesn’t make you spend a 100 hours of flight delays watching Gordon Ramsey yell at not-so-great restaurant owners.

Maybe I can just ride my bike out to the airport on the occasional afternoon, order a grilled cheese, and remap my mind by spending $8.53 on a pretty bad glass of wine. It tastes just the same as the wine on the airplane. In fact, I think it comes from the same tiny bottle distributor. Even better, maybe I’ll find drive down to Page Springs Winery in Sedona, which, though 35 miles from Flag, is way closer than Gallo or Frontera. The wine and I can meet in the middle. Oak Creek runs through Page Springs. The river travels  remaps itself daily.